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  • Okay, I’m going to update about the dental saga, then I’m going to try not to say another word about it until next Tuesday night. Dr. Applebaum is a young, pretty, sweet endodontist. Considering what a weepy wimp I was, she had incredible patience and compassion, along with her assistant who patted my hand and…

  • I may have been mistaken when I assumed that this wasn’t a dental problem. I have an appointment with a root canal specialist tomorrow, and a bottle of hydrocodone. Which has made a dent in the pain but I can honestly say that I am looking forward to a possible root canal, or any damn…

  • Oh lord. Ow, ow, ow. Moan. I tempted Fate by writing about my healing from agoraphobia earlier this week, because my anxiety disorder decided to remind me that it is still here, and THAT part of my problem is unmedicated except for the occasional Xanax. Yesterday I was all fired up to get as much…

  • Dear God, I am writing to ask if I have done something to offend you. I have been sweating for three weeks now. The first week, I thought it was the medication. The second week, I was in Alaska walking around in shorts and sandals on a very cold ship deck looking at icebergs, wishing…

  • Doom, despair, and agony on me

    Deep dark depression, excessive misery If it warn’t for bad luck I’d have no luck at all Doom, despair, and agony on me! My luck is not really so bad but these are dark times around me. I’m having a tough time coping and I don’t blog much when I’m not feeling good. I feel…

  • 2007, don’t let the door hit ya on the way out

    The year certainly started out well – in January I put up a butt-ugly greenhouse and Sandy and I hauled almost 4 tons of composted leaves from the front driveway to the Back Forty. I built raised beds and covered them with Reemay/Agribon fabric and made plans to do some winter market gardening in the…

  • oh, ALL RIGHT!

    ’scuse me while I vent a bit… This tooth does not hurt me right now. In my childhood, I had this tooth, along with every other freaking back tooth in my mouth, filled to the max with silver. This dentist was related to us and apparently was not up-to-date on the latest pain management techniques,…

  • widespread panic

    Had ANOTHER panic attack today. Not good! It’s been months since I’ve had a major panic attack, and two in one week, well…I really don’t want to go on SSRIs again. It’s like my cousin said, “the treatment I was getting for my depression was too depressing.” Besides, I’m not clinically depressed. I know the…

  • the bamboo chair

    Sunday night was bad…I had a panic attack. Then Monday morning, a co-worker called me from work and I had to go in to take care of some things. Everything at work is in chaos. One of the people I support took a vacation last week (which was an extremely unwise decision, to be kind…

  • nibbled to death by ducks

    Yay! A three day weekend, and I have warned everyone at work that I might make it a four or five day weekend. I have got to get my anxiety under control. I’m getting quite crazy. It’s the “Nibbled to Death by Ducks Syndrome” again. Part of the reason I am pursuing a simple lifestyle…